My boyfriend and I have been together for awhile now and we lost our baby Dec 1, we were five weeks. Then we got pregnant again and I went to the doctor for a normal checkup at 14 weeks and 5 days. Well I lost my baby it broke my heart. My boyfriend didn’t come due to work, I was in tears but he met me at the hospital. That was March 23, then I went on birth control and got pregnant later on and I miscarried again at 7 weeks.
No matter how many times you never meet your child you still hurt, you can’t get over it. I always wonder what if or what did I do wrong? To me it was my chance to have a perfect family.I have a son who is 7 and me and his dad split up after he was a year old due to cheating and domestic violence. It kills me every day and the part that hurts the most is my seven year old asking why his brothers or sisters keep dying on him 🙁 How can I answer but cry? I wish I had friends to talk to it’s hard on me, but I know my babies are getting watched over in heaven 🙂 Now I wear my babies on my shoulder, I have a tattoo for all of them, my miscarriage ribbon.
-Amy Borkowski
Buffalo, NY
Published 5/23/16