My name is Arreuna and on October 25, 2015 I lost my son.
I was 8 months pregnant and I lost him from having undetected high blood pressure throughout my pregnancy. He became detached from my placenta. On October 23 I went into labor with him and upon arriving at the hospital I found out he had no heart beat.
This has been the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. I loved my son more than anything. He was my first child, my very first time being pregnant. My fiance and family were so excited to have him. He was my parents’ first grandchild. I’ve never experienced the love I have for him before. It’s like nothing I can explain.
I feel like he was snatched away from me without giving us a fair chance. I mourn for the life we were supposed to have together. His room is still filled with everything a baby boy could need. I will never see his smile, hear his cries or laughs. I will never be able to hold my little boy again. His name was Ethan Messiah and he was my baby. I hope that one day I can be at peace with losing him. He was everything to me before he even arrived in this world.