My story started 5 years ago. We were surprised and very excited to find out we were pregnant. Two days after finding out, I had a miscarriage. A few months later I was pregnant again. We went in for our 10 week scan and there was no heartbeat. I had a D&C a few days later. I had 3 more miscarriages.
We then found out we were pregnant again. Everything was going great. We made it to 18 weeks. I woke up that morning and all of a sudden my water broke. We went to the hospital and it was confirmed that my water did indeed break. I was admitted and we were going to wait and see what would happen. A few days into my stay I became septic and very critically ill. Our son was born sleeping on October 3, 2015, while I was fighting for my life in CICU. There are no words to describe the pain I felt. There are no words to describe the guilt and heartbreak I felt for my husband. It was later determined that I had an incompetent cervix.
In December of 2015 I was pregnant again. This time my doctors placed a cerclage at 14 weeks to keep baby in and safe. Everything was going fantastic. I was 22 weeks pregnant and feeling wonderful. I woke up one morning and felt a lot of pressure. I could feel my membranes bulging out. I immediately rushed to the hospital. My water bag had slipped passed my cerclage. I then started going into labor. I was given meds to try to stop the contractions but it didn’t help. My water broke and our daughter was born a few hours later on May 9, 2016. She lived for 5 hours and I am so grateful for the best 5 hours of my life. She was loved and held every single second of her life. I was so happy to see she looked just like me. We spent those 5 hours looking her over and memorizing every part of her. My heart has been forever changed and I know I will never be the person I was before the births and deaths of my children. I just hope to be at peace one day. Everyday is a struggle. I have more “good” days than bad but even the good days are not the same as before my children.
I flew to Chicago in September and had a life changing surgery that will help me to carry future pregnancies. My surgery was on my daughter’s due date and I know that was not by coincidence. I know my angels are forever watching over me.
Baton Rouge, LA
First And Foremost You Are Strong As Hell! Im In Tears Because I Can Remeber Losing My Baby Girl, What I Still Cant Understand Is Why, Or How, Or What I Did Wrong, What I Do Know Is That U Did Nothing Wrong, You Did All You Could Do! Your Brave, And Your Husband Is Lucky Because Your A Fighter! Dont Ever Give Up! Your Story Is Heartfelt And Im In Tears. But God Loves You And He Especially Love Those Kids! Please Know That My Prayers Are With You And Your Husband👑💕
Thank you so much for your kind words. I’m so sorry for the loss of your daughter. 💕
Thank you for sharing your story of your losses. Try to remain strong sweet mama.
Thank you 💕
I am so sorry for your losses. You are a much stronger person then you know. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband.
Thank you for shareing your story, I lost a baby at 5 weeks and I thought my world was going to end. You are a very strong woman, and your angel babies are watching over you for sure!
Thank you for sharing your story..you have touched the hearts of so many women. I too, have suffered with the loss of miscarriage. not a day goes by that I don’t think of my babies and whatthey could have become. I do know that time heals. Today I work for an OB/GYN practice and that brings me comfort that I can help the women who do experience such a loss..
Thank you Sandra. I’m sure you are such a blessing to so many women!