When do you…?
After all these years of wanting multiple children when do you make the decision to stop trying?
When do you make the decision that you can not go through another loss?
When do you make the decision to not give your child a sibling when you know what they will be missing?
When do you make that call?
Where do you choose to draw that line?
Will we ever be okay with the concept of having an only child?
These are are the questions I ask myself regularly. For now I don’t have any answers to these questions.
We told ourselves a few years ago that we would never put ourselves through the struggles of trying for another child like we did with our daughter. But now that we are there and figuring out what we are going to do I feel torn. Torn because I don’t want to stop trying but every loss tears a piece of us away. How much more do we have to give before it’s too late?
So many questions and so few answers. One day the answers will come, but today we will put the questions away for another day.